Why Me?

This time of year with Christmas and the New Year coming, I feel like I'm suppose to reflect and appreciate and I hate feeling like I'm suppose to do that! I'm such a rebel. Despite that, I have been thinking about something I saw a while ago. There was a professional sports guy- I don't know who he was or what he played, I just know I saw him on TV. He'd been at the top of his game and something had happened and he's had some pretty rotten stuff going on, and the reporter asked him if he ever asked "Why me?". He gave the most amazing answer. He said he never asked "Why Me?" when he was successful and life was fantastic, so why would he ask that now?

Lately, I have thought of that and wondered, "why me?". Why me to have such a great life? Why me to be happy hanging out at home all day? Why me to have 5 wonderful, amazing, adorable kids who are healthy, whole and happy? Why me to have a great husband who does the dishes, takes out the trash and is currently holding a snotty nosed, crying, cranky baby? How did I get so lucky?

I mean, I made some pretty stupid choices in my life. (Obviously I made some darn good ones too, to be here now!) 12 years ago, if you'd shown me my life today, I wouldn't have imagined I would be here. I expected to be somewhere very different by now. So why did I get chosen to have a nearly perfect life? I'm pretty sure there was some intervention in my life to put me where I am right now. Why did the Lord look down on me and say, she gets to win the life lottery? I don't know. It makes me feel a greater sense of responsibility to do a good job with it though.

I am very blessed. I have a great family. I was raised in a great family, and I married into a great family. Seeing my children play together nicely today gives me hope that they'll also feel like they have a great family. I feel very thankful to have the Gospel in my life. To have an Eternal perspective and to have an idea of what matters has made such a difference in my life. I am grateful to know that I have an Eternal Family, and to know that my Savior loves me and cares about me. And I know that if I end up on the other end of the Why Me spectrum, I'll be able to endure and get through. And if I'm really lucky, I may be able to do it with the grace and the amazing attitude that my friend Bryn has. (Check out her blog on my friends list. I'm not smart enough to put a link in here!)