Doldrums

Today was the first day of school. I intended to take lots of pictures, since it was Marian's very first day ever. Unfortunately, I was given a handout that said the bus would arrive at 8:31, which was a dirty, dirty lie. So it arrived as we were walking out the door at 8:25 (and they said he was late!). This means that Joshua and Marian raced to the bus and Marian panicked, thinking they would leave her behind. Not really how I hoped thier first day would go.

And I enrolled Joshua in the Spanish Emmersion Program, so he spends half his day (math and science) in Spanish only. He hated it. I said he had to try it till Christmas. We'll see how it goes, and I'll hope like crazy that his math and science skills don't slip too much.

I spent the day doing absolutely nothing. I let Callie watch PBS and I did nothing. It was great. And then Dan emailed and called. He had really wanted to do this military commissions and be defense for Gitmo detainees, but today he was told they want someone with more trial experience and preferably a higher rank. He is pretty disappointed. I am too. I am glad he will have better hours and less stress, but I know how much he wanted a law billet, and its disappointing. So we went out to dinner. It was to celebrate the kids' first day of school, and ease the pain of Dan's lack of law for the next 2 years.

And I'm feeling glum because I'm not all settled in. The house part is great (except for those last couple boxes....). It feels like home, but nothing else does. And I'm thinking that I don't really like having to make friends. Its such an ordeal, to find people and see if we click; To find people with kids the same ages, who parenting doesn't make me want to scream; To find moms who's kids get along with mine, or who have something in common with me; To find moms who have time and energy and interest in making and maintaining a friendship is pretty tricky, and I'm thinking its not really that much fun. Yet I must make the effort, and perhaps by Sunday I'll be in the mood again. I like making easy friendships, where you click right off the bat. That is fun. Wish me luck.....